Mother's Day!

Mother's Day is so bittersweet for me. I have the BEST mom I could ever ask for and I love her so dearly. I have also been blessed with an amazing son, who I am too, thankful for. I prayed to be a Mommy for so many long years, and I would not trade any of those painful days and nights because they lead Ryan and me to Tristan. God heard all my cries and he blessed us with a beautiful son and has allowed me to be his mother. I am indeed, blessed.

Every year I am so excited about Mother's Day, but every year I am left with this little heartache. I carried it all day today and it was not until tonight that I was able to face what it really was. I was rocking with Tristan and we were reading Pat the Bunny before bed. I asked Tristan who he wanted to pray for tonight and he told me "Pray for doctors. They make everything better." (cute) Then I asked him if he wanted to pray for his birth-mommy and he said yes. While I mention them, I am sure that he does not know what that means, but more on that in a totally different blog....

It broke my heart... I get the fun job.... sitting in Tristan's comfy chair snuggled up with him in his Thomas the train "jams" reading Pat the Bunny. I get to smell his sweet "baby smell" after he has taken that nice long bath and his hair is still damp. I get to sing him songs out of tune and have him giggle and ask me to sing them again. I get the fun job. But somewhere out there is a lonely girl who misses out on all that. My heart breaks for her. I will forever be grateful to her and her selfless sacrifice. I pray for both of them often that God will overwhelm them with peace and comfort and that they will know deep within that Tristan is so dearly loved and cared for. I pray that one day they too will know God's power and love. Oh, I can't begin to imagine how she must feel like on a day like today. I just trust that God has a bigger plan in all of this. While I know why we have Tristan, and I rejoice that I was chosen to be his super blessed Mommy, I pray for a young woman who chose life for her son. She is a mother and she, too, should be honored on this special day.